wondering

Have you ever just wondered?
Today as i was walking through the sreets on my way home, it was raining that fine rain, where everything gets soaked, and for about 3 seconds everything seemed quiet and still. Eerily so.
Then all of a sudden thoughts seemed to come into my head, i wonder where she's going, i wonder whether the little green man will be showing when i reach the crossroad, i wonder whether its going to flood again like before, i wonder if he will call me tonight, i wonder whether he even thinks of me, i wonder how my mum is, i wonder at the passer by and the rain that has now stopped just s suddenly as it began.
And it just won't stop, i;m now here wondering why i am writing this, wondering whether tomorrow will be better than today or whether i will ever see the smiling man again.
The trouble with wondering is all optons of answers are open because i never keep wondering about one thing for long enough to get any, and then i feel as though i have spent all day thinking about something and nothing??
And truth is i probably have, again.

Secrets!

I've just got back from the pub after having a few drinks with a couple of friends.


It was the usual sit around, a couple of pints of bow, and a girly chit chat and gossip, all good.


Until,


Helen a friend of mine who i was at one time quite close to, leaned towards me and said


'Gem, do you think everyone has a secret'


'yes, i'm sure of it' i replied


'so you have a secret then?'she asked


'yes, as i said i think deep down everyone has something they don't want the world to know'


'whats your secret?'


'well sorry H but if i tell you it won't be a secret any longer will it' (i wanted to add, not with a mouth like yours love but thought better of it.)


So we go back to general chit chat, clothes, blokes, who's doing what or who should i say, and there she is again,


'Gem?'


'Yes?'


'Your secret? is it just me you won't tell? Does Sarah know?'


'What, no its a secret, infact its not even worth mentioning'



'So why won't you say what it is?'



And so it went on, and on.

The fact is I don't even really have a secret, i just didn't want to sound boring.

Savings?!?

I've just got back from the supermarket, its a place that is necessary to visit, but, in my opinion not a pleasurable place!
Up and down the aisles i went, bread, veg, rice, fish, milk, my trolley filled with foods to last me the week.
Now, the difficult part, which till do i go to? i must have spent at least 47 seconds weighing up the options, which till has the least people waiting? out of these tills which person is likely to be the fastest moving through? So i decide, till 21. Currently the patient check out lady is serving a middle aged woman, who has a daughter with her to help pack and carry. Fantastic, won't be waiting long here. They have bought a lot of stuff, )i don't like to think of myself as being to nosy, but when your in a queue you can't help but look at what the person in front of you has purchased) £179.20 the checkout lady says, the middle aged lady looks up hands her credit card across and then about 10 25p off vouchers??? she has just spent £179.20 and is now holding up the queue for a £2.50 discount. To top it off the till sticks, and we stand a further 5 minutes waiting for the 16yr old supervisor to fix it!
I know that every penny counts and every little helps, but flaming heck!!